by KAITLIN KERR
We are rhyming couplets
Or should be
Or once were . . .
I preemptively miss the possibility of stroking your grey hair—
tucking it behind your ear with foreheads pressed together
after bedside reading, I nest close . . . and closer,
not saying I’m trying to know you by osmosis
There are shards of glass in my heart tonight, I say casually
risking to find you by echolocation—your eyes still brutally blue
Your heartbeat on my cheek is not the home we’d made
My shadow falls where last I felt your trace—
I wait upon my cue: the closing of a door—
a sudden gasp; a dying breath . . .
I am your common haunt, home for your ghost
(who corrects me still if I misuse transposed)
For the first time in months, I sip whisky alone,
follow it with tea . . . because we used to
We is a lump in my throat
I try to clear with warm elixir . . .
Weighing costs of exorcism, I swallow hard.
You shift your feet . . . eyes brutally blue and scarred
The final drop of Moroccan mint with lemon hits
the bottom of the honeyed cup—a tarnished penny, tossed
with desperation for just one more sip, My Heart—
another and another, till we . . .
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Kaitlin Kerr is a nurse, actress, and writer. She holds degrees in both English Literature and Nursing. Much of her work grows out of the reality of living with a rare chronic pain disorder and finding true meaning in art, beauty, and connection with others. Some of her recent work can be found in Pif magazine, Wingless Dreamer, and Goat Farm Poetry Society’s zine anthology.
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